And I have been making excuses. And I have not been moving forward in my life, essentially going nowhere.
Call me Henry.
With 2013 fresh upon us, it's time I stop making excuses, and fix my bucket so I can fill it with water and get moving.
It's also funny how some songs just speak to us.
My music tastes are varied, from smooth jazz; Dave Koz, Chris Botti, Anita Baker, to a tiny bit harder; Journey, Cher, Cyndi Lauper. Anything much heavier (or overtly sexual) doesn't really reach out to me. I had some personal issues with some of Madonna's material in the 80's and have not truly gravitated toward Lady Gaga, though I applaud both women for their support for the LGBT community. So, I was surprised when one of P!nk's newest songs really made me sit up, take notice and wipe away a tear, or two.
So, I'm making it my anthem for 2013;
Try, by P!nk
From The Truth About Love
Where there is desire,
There is going to be a flame,
Where there is a flame,
Someone's bound to get burned;
But, just because it burns,
Doesn't mean you're going to die,
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
And while I do admit to having been twice burned (and now thrice shy) in love, that doesn't mean I shouldn't try to live a life that is full, and maybe entertain the idea of love. I also admit that love is not the only area of my life where I have been making excuses. Finances are improving, slowly, but improving just the same. My house is slowly beginning to reflect my personality and decorating style. I will still need to devote some time to prepping for teaching, after all, it is not a 6 hour a day job like so many people think. So, I need to stop making excuses and get out and meet people. And just LET things be.
So, with a little money coming in, my house needing a bit less attention, I will make an attempt to fill the hole in my bucket and get out and live.
After all, all I can do is try.