In the three years post divorce, I have met seven men who've stood out in some way (I've actually met a few more, they just didn't stand out as much) and only three of those were on actual dates. Of the seven men, I felt connected enough with only two of them for me to seriously consider a relationship, to be willing to risk my heart. Surprisingly, I did NOT meet either of those two men under dating circumstances.
The connection I felt with both of them was more than just a physical attraction: it was, in my mind and heart, based on a possible deep friendship first, the kind that could grow into an amazing romance later. And with one of them the connection even felt spiritual. At least for me. And even stranger was that the connection I felt was very strong, stronger than with my exes.
Both men are intelligent, are very attractive, have a passion for life, love animals and are all around amazing guys.
But, perhaps the most unusual connection they share is the fact they were both born on the same day, but different years.
And I fell for them really hard. And fast, perhaps too fast.
But something happened and I'm not sure exactly what it was or where I now stand with them. Well, I know I will probably never hear from the first one ever again. And time will tell with the other one. But, I think the writing is on the wall. And it's not looking good.
But, time will indeed tell on both.
So, what happened? I don't know, but the only thing I can think of, since I am the common thread, is that I may have misunderstood their intentions, miscommunicated mine, or scared them off some other way.
But, the fact that they both appeared in my life and I felt so very connected to them tells me that those are the qualities I am looking for in a husband. The first one had actually set the bar and the second guy has now raised it.
My Potential Husband has some big shoes to fill!
And he will.
But, I'll just get a little freaked out if he shares their birthday.
Or, I'll take it as an omen. Third time is the charm, they say.
People enter and exit our lives for reasons and both of these men have taught me several lessons:
- Really good men still exist out there
- I am not emotionally dead
- I will know when I will be willing to take that risk
- Trust my instincts
Also, as the people in our lives serve as a mirror of ourselves, the fact that I admire certain qualities in these two men also tell me I also admire those same qualities in me.
I just need to find them.
They're just deeply buried right now.
As I'm still smarting from the second whatever-it-was (we didn't officially date, never kissed, and yet, I still fell for him) I've decided to concentrate on exploring more of my spiritual side.
A recent sign I received from the Universe reminded me I always have a choice. In every matter I always have a choice. I'm choosing to develop more of a relationship with Spirit and with each of the various Spirit Guides I've encountered along my Path.
And this, in turn, will help me be ready for the next time I meet someone amazing.